It's a constant battle; the battle of the chunk if you will. I've been at war with my body since I was a kid. I've always been a little round around the edges and though it hasn't stopped me from playing sports, meeting guys, and climbing freaking mountains, it has stopped me from one thing I'd like to do before I die: wear a bikini. I look good in most of the bathing suits I wear, but the bikini has never been one I felt confident enough to wear. I've tried on plenty, and even specialty ones for my lovely lady lumps (ugh...did I just quote Fergie?) an never felt comfortable to wear one. Just once I would like to walk around half naked outside of my house and enjoy the summer and the waves of the ocean. It is mostly just so I can say I did it.
Obviously that is not the only reason I want that awesome beach bod. I have plenty. Mostly stemming from low self-esteem and really shitty boyfriends (I dated a guy who made fun of my curves once...that did NOT settle well with me). Over the years I have become much more confident. I used to only wear tee shirts as a teen, because I did not like to show my arms. (ie no tanks, no spaghetti strap, no strapless). I don't have such a hang up anymore about how clothes look on me. if there is a little ripple I'll survive, I know the fats there, we all do. I no longer wear baggy clothes unless I want to. Which sometimes is called for.
So to get back into hot tottie shape, as I like to call it, I am working out three days a week every week for the next three weeks. This is just to start of course. I find starting small helps you lose big in the long run. I am also staying away from cakes and ice cream when I am NOT on my period. Here is why. It's inevitable that I will crave something sweet when my hormones go crazy. My will power at that point is below zero. But throughout the rest of the month I can be pretty good about not eating sweets. So, why not savor my sweet tooth when I can't help it.
I work at a restaurant and the food is great. But eating out everyday (via the restaurant) isn't. A good fix for this is to only eat the salads and the veggie plates. Sure I will still be eating a lot of salt and probably fat, but It will be a lot less than if I partook of that huge burger platter smothered with goodness (I love their burgers...this will be hard). Well, most of the time anyways, I can splurge right? Right.
Okay. So now that it's out there in the internets, let's see what I can do to actually keep up the good work. I worked out Monday and took a break Tuesday. I was sore but mobile which was good. Well later on in the day, I became REALLY sore...bad mojo...now I'm going to find every reason possible to not workout! But I will do the best I can to work against that feeling and put in 20 minutes of heart pumping aerobics that is sure to help me make a healthier life choice so I can run, jump, and play with my children later on in life... all while wearing a bikini. :)
Ciao
